your passionfruit

What's next..?

2012-01-25T20:20:00.000-08:00

Some things beg for a sequel.

So what happens when there's no one there to write it?
Who decides what rightfully happens next?

Finished The Vespertine; I am not a book critic and I shall not attempt to be such a person, but I will say that I enjoyed the historical setting and the fancy ballgowns and dance cards (but perhaps I romanticize the past) and Amelia's whole sunset-vesper-future thing, and the whole Nathaniel Witherspoon-wind thing.

The language was just a bit flowery though, and some parts were confusing to chew down on.

Time to study these Taylor/Maclaurin Series and Le Petit Prince and hope for the best.

Choose one

2012-01-23T17:29:00.000-08:00

I choose X for reasons.

There's some interesting music out there. Interesting band names and song titles and

Same applies to books, I think. Their titles, their font choices, the little snippets of summaries they have on the inner flaps, the pictures they use for their cover.

I mean, they say you shouldn't judge a book by its cover, and I am, but I'm not, in the sense that I'm quite open to all sorts of books out there and all sorts of covers and title names but I still base my choices off of those things.

When I'm at the library and all the "good" books by those "brilliant" authors are checked out.

And I don't know how else to choose books to borrow.

2012-01-22T20:50:00.001-08:00

"WHAT, YOU SHOULD LOVE ME MORE THAN HIM, JUST NOT ON THAT SAME SPECTRUM"
-Jenny

And of course, I ain't telling you who he is.
And yes, "ain't" can be grammatically correct.

Tea!

2012-01-21T22:18:00.000-08:00

So I woke up at 5:20 and go to school at 5:55 AM, had Pancake Breakfast, did solo, etc. etc. etc.

That was all tiring and fun and whatever but the highlight of my day was getting fruit tea (and then having to go to the bathroom a billion times after while playing Just Dance and watching my dad flail about) and then seeing this

very
sort of
somewhat
cute
guy

smile as he stood behind the cash register

and I sort of wanted to linger but I had errands to run and so,

no I don't think anything will come of this.

As usual.

2012-01-19T17:39:00.000-08:00

Am I, now?

2012-01-18T22:58:00.000-08:00

Am I a Ms. now, Mr. Chen?

Does this song not take you to a completely different time period?

Dusty emeralds

2012-01-18T19:02:00.000-08:00

Fingerless gloves are awesome to type in. Only because my fingers, when frozen, can't type very quickly.

They can't do anything quickly, for that matter.

I like these dark green bows.

Sorry I had to take a clichéd picture with TFiOS but I haven't bought my own copy yet...and plus, James got a teal autograph! TEAL!

Anyways, I know I go brush and texture crazy, and I have MacLaurin stuff to figure out, so I probably shouldn't be wasting any more time on Photoshop than I normally do, but anyways. Y'know.

I don't..

2012-01-18T16:50:00.000-08:00

I don't really understand, or maybe I do.

The whole, John Green ending his books with letters and what not.
Thankfully, he didn't end The Fault in Our Stars ¹ in the middle of a

But I think that's what pulls me into withdrawal most.
I really do.

1. In case you haven't noticed what TFiOS is (the book I've been raving and fangirling about for the past few days), there's the book title. It got really good reviews on Amazon. And, it's not a girl book. It's not a chick flick book. Or perhaps, it's like an onion, with layers. It can be this chick flick book if you want. And it can be so much more.

Oh..

2012-01-17T19:34:00.000-08:00

Sorry for all the quotes but

Just CAN'T decide what to wear. Do you like me better in a polo or a button-down?

Augustus Waters, before he goes to Amsterdam.

Button-down.

(I agree with you alright, Hazel Grace.)

Oh yes, button-down, button-down, button-down, button-down, button-down!
BUTTON-DOWN. ♡ ♡ ♡

Sluttish time

2012-01-17T18:49:00.000-08:00

Because: What a slut time is. She screws everybody.
-Peter Van Houten
TFiOS

So, I just need to get some of this out:

"Look, let me just say it: He was hot. A nonhot boy stares at you relentlessly and it is, at best, awkward and, at worst, a form of assault. But a hot boy...well."

Hooray for Hazel Grace.

I don't know how many times this book has made me laugh...I'm on chapter eight (thank you, James, for lending me your lovely, teal autographed book).

Tell me my copy is missing the last twenty pages or something.
Hazel Grace, tell me I have not reached the end of this book.
OH MY GOD DO THEY GET MARRIED OR NOT OH MY GOD WHAT IS THIS
I guess Anna died and so it just ends? CRUEL. Call me when you can. Hope all's okay.
I'd might like an Augustus Waters..

..but I feel that the two of them fit about right.

I sort of want to read An Imperial Affliction, only it doesn't exist.
I sort of want to be your number one fan no matter what you do, supporting you from the sidelines, only, I don't know what category that falls in.

It definitely is not, Jenny Yu, friends with "benefits".

Clearly

2012-01-17T00:35:00.000-08:00

Good morning everyone.

Clearly, chugging down sweet tea earlier today was not a good idea.
Because, as I am blogging this early in the morning/late at night, clearly, I can't fall asleep.
Because clearly, my bladder does not want me to rest for long periods of time any time soon.

Because, clearly, seeing a leaf fall down from a tree for the first time at Schabarum Park and pulling out Jenny's half white, half brown/black/coffee strand of hair has everything to do with this.

Good night. Back to bed.

Different lens.

2012-01-16T21:21:00.000-08:00

I'm not giving up. Just taking a break.

If only for a little while.

---
Thankfully James has been kind enough to lend me his TFiOS tomorrow. I got to chapter six at Barnes and Nobles and I'm too cheap to buy it myself.

Just a thought though. You think that it'll be okay if we just sit it out for five more months and restart when this is all over.

I, on the other hand, think otherwise.
I don't want to just sit around and do nothing.

What

2012-01-14T00:51:00.001-08:00

The future me is saying "What the hell are you doing right now, Waverly Chao?"

Shh

2012-01-13T10:26:00.001-08:00

It's not important.

Reminiscing

2012-01-12T23:06:00.000-08:00

I really was curious about the transparent bra strap.

-Darren Chang

Wow

2012-01-12T22:12:00.000-08:00

(Jenny I can totally see you making W's with your fingers. Anyways.)

Oh, uh, didn't know somebody could screw up so many times.
AGH!
I can be really idiotic. And stupid.

The worst part about it is that I can't really let it out.
But when it gets to be too bad, I suppose that's when it all comes out and that's just worse isn't it?

Chez moi

2012-01-11T19:33:00.000-08:00

Derek, you hit home. Sort of.

It's not even about who or what anymore, you opened up this larger picture. You singled out the event, got rid of it, and made me look at the root of the problem, a problem I always knew was there but didn't know was so very..prevalent?

And if you can get that out from what little I've said, well..

..anyways, thank you. Have a rainy day in Andover.

No?

2012-01-11T18:52:00.000-08:00

I said I'd work things out. So I'll try to do what I can.
In any case, things can change rather rapidly in a matter of minutes so, I guess we're up for some interesting advancements over this weekend.

Sort of a trippy video and the song is, I suppose, different but in any case, it's got me itching to watch /-\ S\/\/EDIS|-| |_0VE ST0RY. (A Swedish Love Story. Only, the one with slashes is the one that brings you to it on Youtube.)

And I have nothing to do tonight (okay, so French pronouns is something I need to study for...), so I could watch it tonight. I could.

But somehow, I always find a way to waste my time or screw things up.

I..

2012-01-06T23:41:00.000-08:00

I am not sure if I know how to fit in. How to be social.

That is all.

It takes a lot of energy to remind myself of my choice.
And I've second doubted myself many, many times.

And then somebody calls them a "bunch of two faced cutthroat people"¹ and I'm momentarily reminded of why I chose this and I remember that when he sees me he sees "a strong person who won't automatically break down when certain events don't fall into place."²

And there you go, that's my motivation. What keeps me going. Must remind self or I may just have a public break down one of these days. The sad thing is that people will probably just stare and go on with their lives. That's what I get for seeming indifferent, right?

Learned a lot today at church. About what a church is. It was an enriching lesson.

1. Hey, black v-necks suit you.
2. You're quite adorable. In the awkward, boy-ish way.

Life without..

2012-01-04T21:07:00.001-08:00

..glasses feels unbearable, but I'll live with dry contacts.

..without God would really, really be unbearable.

Quick

2012-01-04T16:31:00.000-08:00

Before I forget.

Just some thoughts.

Yeah, I have thoughts.

New Years Resolutions. Those that I will, at least, publicly proclaim.

1. I can not control what other people do, think, say, etc. Well I guess, yes, I can choose to be a manipulative b*tch about something, but that's not the common option to run to. And if a dear friend is considering suicide I will step in and intervene but I honestly can not control others' actions. And I'm not their mom.

So I won't.

But now, if you're going to go on an insulting spree, I will have my say about that.

2. If I have nothing good to really say, I won't say it. I guess if I'm having an off day and I'm super snarky and I just want to insult everybody then, okay. But en générale, there is no point in saying something bad about someone's hairdo or outfit.

But, when it comes to constructive criticism or what not, well, that's a whole other animal. And then, it's okay. As long as it's objective. I think.

3. Just. Chill. Do I need to elaborate on this one? In any case, I believe this may be the hardest one. Time to uh, be more open. After talking with Justin Kang once I realized that I can come off as...indifferent. Trust me, I'm not. I'm just terribly afraid to talk to you. Really. I am. Ask anyone. Ask James.

I'd like to say I'm a level 5 now, after all these years but I guess I'm still a level 2.

Unless I'm upset about something you've done, then well, maybe I am being purposely indifferent.

4. And this is everything else mashed together, but I am trying to cleanse out my palette. So this means less cursing and less profanity and less all of that, really.

But that's sort of hard when you have Takumi¹, the one wearing the fox hat (Because no one can catch the motherf*cking fox), and he's all cool and fictional and stuff and he raps and he's Asian but Southern and his diction and minor character development opens up doors to your imagination and makes you like him more.

tl; dr? Think of my repetitive annoyances and now realize that I am on my way to alleviating the irritability commonly associated with those things.

1. Looking for Alaska, yes, again. It's always nice to reread books and see the impact it can have on you. I cried the first time I read it, after I fell into the happy, mysterious, manic pixie dream girl, the-concoction-you've-made-of-her-is-better-than-the-real-her-but-sometimes-you-just-can't-really-see-it-like labyrinth that is Alaska.

Somewhere in between

2012-01-02T19:56:00.000-08:00

I guess that's where you'll find me.

And I vaguely remember Lara smiling at me from the doorway, the glittering ambiguity of a girl's smile, which seems to promise an answer to the question but never gives it.
-page 64

Don't you know who you love, Pudge? You love the girl who makes you laugh and shows you stuff* and drinks wine with you. You don't love the crazy, sullen b*tch.
-page 96

Looking for Alaska

Ugh, my head hurts. Too many screens in one house. Time to sleep early tonight. Goodbye, winter break..

*Yeah, stuff. Think pomegranates, Roger. Just trying to be appropriate.

Let me fangirl

2012-01-02T00:07:00.000-08:00

Just for a bit.

How are you so adorable it doesn't matter what you're wearing or if your hair is all messy (it usually isn't) or if your not smiling or if you're laughing (which you usually are) or being mobbed by everyone else or -

..just marry me ♡

Edit: 1/3/12
Uh..I think this about sums up everything.
Your smile ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

Oh..

2012-01-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

..happy new year.

Are you supposed to capitalize it?

In any case, here's to one more semester of school left before we're all on our separate ways.

Cheers.

Just keep looping this.. ♡♡

P. S. Party rock was not my first song of the year. I refuse to agree with you.
P. S. S. Done with apps. Yesterday. Finally. Time to wait.

2011-12-31T17:32:00.001-08:00

I love platinum blonde boys with snarky attitudes(^_^)V
-Jenny

What..

2011-12-30T10:22:00.001-08:00

Looped 82 times and counting. The juice that keeps me going.
---
Who dreams about their future wedding and what not?
What in the world..

Last stretch

2011-12-29T22:35:00.000-08:00

Jonathan Lee: Lol. Fine
-____- I miss you. Jerk

YAY, at least somebody does.

So guys, how are you holding up these last final days?

Sometimes I wish the new year would never start.

But, on another note. Had fun at SD Zoo with mom and grandma today (:
So many elephants D:

2011-12-28T22:31:00.000-08:00

Me: eggzactly.
he was probably brilliant
James Huang:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
IT'S LIKE EXACTLY
BUT YOU PUT AN EGG IN THERE AND MADE IT A Z
OMG GENIOUS
genius.

I think his brain is fried from all of this last minute supplement writing. Nobody laughs at my "eggzactly". Nobody laughs at that.

He needs some sleep. And coffee.

Pfft

2011-12-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

Hey it's taetoro!

According to Kevin, at least.

_Credit

Yeeh.

2011-12-28T20:18:00.000-08:00

✪ Discussing pivotal things with Jenny.
Hating self for being overly frugal and too willing to spend a the same time. I guess this is what we call double standards.
Finding that spark.

✪ Bringing my childish side out because of my elephant pillow pet. Much thanks to Michelle, Jeffrey and Bryan.
Freaking out over the first 40 scary minutes of some obscure movie I am never going to finish watching, Jonathan.
Worrying over WF with Jon. Not that he has to worry.
Realizing that guys...count calories too.

✪ Running in late for a hang out that was decidedly my idea.
Ditching Cathy Ngyuen for Thai food because the wait was too long.
Being made fun of becuase my ride was late and it was cold outside and with Alan the jokes just get weird.
Going on food breaks when the movie took time to load.
Sneaking a smile when I see how adorable he can-
Comparing Gnomeo and Juliette to other movies and seeing archetypes way too often.
Drinking red bean soup with black sesame 汤圆.
Giggling at people Just Dancing¹.

✪ Chilling in a nice pink frothy drink (or whatever a cosmopolitan is), 37 stories above sin city
Watching my mom frantically push buttons to keep the light on while I, on the side, play with the touch screen control panel. Keeping my laughter in. Until I really can't anymore.
Acting snarky as usual.

✪ (Just) Dancing myself, with Sarah and Eileen
Making headway in our quartet and making up random chords, hoping something will work.
Wondering why I don't interact with little children well.

✪ Staying up way late. Which is probably normal by your standards.
Rereading past conversations and wondering what went wrong.
Rushing through as many leisure books as possible.
Charging up my DS.
Struggling to finish up the last few supplements.

This sounds like winter break.

1. Y'know, Just Dance? The Wii game.

What they say

2011-12-27T23:39:00.000-08:00

You know what they say, those sayings:

Don't make a person your everything because once they're gone you'll have nothing

OR

Don't make somebody a priority if you're only an option

OR

whatever rendition you can find of it

But you get the point right? The general meaning of those quotes.

I guess today I made the mistake of doing that.
Of making you more important to me, too important, than I am to you.

I mean, I'm sure no relationship is equal in terms of how it's reciprocated.
But this, well. Come on. This is a bit 誇張, don't you think?

Or maybe, I guess..it's like this.

Guess I'm not worthy. So to speak. Or just easily forgotten and overlooked.
Guess I shouldn't raise you up because it doesn't matter anyway.
Guess I shouldn't try.

Right?

AGHH

2011-12-22T12:24:00.001-08:00

I hate pills I hate pills I hate supplements I hate supplements akldsfjlaksjdfla;jsflj;sd

RAWRRGGGGGGHHH

I know of no other way to express my frustration.

Time to eat chocolate.

Epic journeys

2011-12-21T22:28:00.000-08:00

USE THE HOTTEST
OF WATERS
-Kevin Edralin

Because colds are epic battles that we need to fight every now and then.

Happy Birthday Kevin, by the way.

Cantaloupe

2011-12-21T20:53:00.000-08:00

So, 3 more supplement mini-essays and I'm done. I feel behind but I'm almost done. Almost almost almost done.

Now, time to feel better.
I think I'm going to throw up after all of that cantaloupe.

Betrayal

2011-12-17T00:04:00.001-08:00

It's a horrible thing when somebody betrays your trust.

Secret Magi

2011-12-16T17:56:00.001-08:00

Secret Magi is tonight and I think my person knows who I am because I didn't hide my handwriting well..

But anyways.
I'll have fun trying to figure out who mine's is.

On a side note, finals are done! :D Today's not that bad of a day after all.

I tried looking for a Slytherin scarf for you
-Jenny

Heh.

2011-12-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

Barney: Ted really did love Zoey for a minute there, didn't he?
Robin: Yeah. He did.
Barney: And she loved him too. Didn't she?
Robin: Yeah..she did.

Do you remember that time? We got into an argument. And I didn't believe you. And we were over. And you told me to think what I wanted to think, believe what I wanted to believe.

Jayesslee

2011-12-15T19:58:00.001-08:00

I think I love them!

How lang, you lame-o

2011-12-15T17:23:00.000-08:00

Because we reinvent words all the time. Somewhat embarrassed to post this up though. But we all need a few laughs every now and then.

A Mac is pretty hard to use though..I need to learn where all the controls are and such.

Grand Finales

2011-12-15T15:15:00.000-08:00

Doomshour has passed, and so has my chance to go to Yale. That's not saying I won't have an opportunity to transfer in the future, but who knows where God will take me?

While it is a pity, I have peace. I guess that's the brilliance of prayer.

And of Philippians 4:6-7

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Hehehe well now it's back to writing cards and wrapping gifts (Jenny, your gift was ridiculously hard to wrap) and figuring out how I'm supposed to hand out gifts to four teachers tomorrow...

Oh and of course. I need to review for gov. And a little for French.

2011-12-14T21:12:00.000-08:00

So, commercials sometimes have really really great songs.

Take me to your best friend's house
I loved you then and I love you now
Oh yeah

Not suggestive at all.

Ways to distract self from tomorrow's doomshour (as Alan put it)? Well, I'll be..

Studying for finals, making them Christmas cards with colored pencils, construction paper, foam letters, the whole shabang, thinking about friendzones and Winter Formal and what I'll be doing over break.

Oh...

2011-12-14T19:14:00.001-08:00

My grades should stay how they are. That would be good. I need some energy to "study" for these finals..

..on any hand, I'll also need some energy for tomorrow.
But there's a lot of distractions, so I should be fine. I won't be too freaked out.

But either way, I know I'll be fine. Thanks for the reassurance and the fist bump, Mr. Lim.

Yeah, we're studying.

2011-12-13T21:18:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure how much studying or discussion we actually got done today (even yesterday seemed more productive, when we were all focused on gov).

But what I do know is that it was priceless seeing Alan's face when IU started to sing, Ryan's strange amusement with webcam features, Jonathan's math fails, Sarah's creeper faces, Carissa's sarcastic comments (I guess this would be hearing and not seeing), and Jeremy's constant meme references (I guess this would be hearing too).

And everyone's expression when I asked them what an "uh-leh-guh-ree"¹ was.

1. Allegory. A symbolic narrative with bigger meaning.

2011-12-11T20:30:00.001-08:00

Jenny: OH SH*T HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE LOL

Funny thing

2011-12-11T18:57:00.001-08:00

The funny thing of the day? I guess, no matter how badly we want to get to the bottom of things, to the end of a really good series, the last chapter of a book, the withdrawal that we often feel from it..is so much greater. Makes you sort of not want to ever finish what you're enjoying, makes you wish that feeling weren't so ephemeral.

Happy 17th to me. Apparently, the cakes at 95°C are so much better than the ones at K.K. Bakery. But all sarcasm aside, ramen and ice cream and cake are all good. I'm still full after that lunch; I don't think I'll be eating dinner.

Thanks to all the birthday wishes and what not. Such a pity it's not winter break yet.

Well.. Back to gov! And then practicing for my French oral (thanks Alan, now it sounds dirty no matter what). And then Christmas card writing and gift wrapping (or bag stuffing and tissue paper crumpling). And...new layout. Like it?

_{Edit: I know the navigation is sort of strange...but anyways, this was overall, quickly done to get into the mood for the holidays. I did notice that the background has one part where it doesn't tile seamlessly, but I"ll work on that later. But hey look, you can comment now. (: Tell me what you think!}

This ship is sailing

2011-12-08T22:35:00.000-08:00

"I DON'T WANT TO KILL HER, ALRIGHT?" he shouted."

Jenny, laugh all you want about my strange pastimes but for the past few days (and the coming week) this will be the only thing keeping me sane. Modified quotes and ambiguous titles so the rest of you can't catch on and jump onto this poke-fun-at-her boat.

Uhh, hi..

2011-12-07T21:10:00.001-08:00

I have never been more blissfully distracted in my life. It's sent all these shivers up my spine and I'm all nervous and I can't think properly or think straight or think logically (not that I've ever been that much of a voice of reason) and you're just so darn distracting I don't really know what to do. Why I'm jittery, I have no clue.

I need sweet dreams tonight.

Complete

2011-12-05T16:54:00.001-08:00

I really need to start looking at the status of mangas/dramas/animes/whatever-it-is-I'm-currently-following before I allow myself to become swept into their world because imagine how incredibly upset I become when I'm on the last chapter on the list and realize that the whole entire thing is still in the process of being completed...and the updater takes several months to post up the next part. Chapter. Episode. Etc.

And I really need to step out of my habit of associating fictional characters with real life people. Not good. Really really really not good. And like bureaucracies, or whatever it was on our gov notes, they don't always end well.

And, at last, I really need to stop narrating every single little thing I do (as if I were writing a slice of life or a novel or a chick-flick-book) in my head after I finish reading a good book, novel, story...I guess it's entertaining at first, but it's too much of a slippery slope.

Tick Tock

2011-12-01T15:54:00.001-08:00

The whole time I was watching, I thought of only three things. One: Professor Layton and the Unwound Future. Two, her dress, romper, whatever it is, is dreadfully short. Even if she is cute. I hope there are pants underneath. And third, hey, the red dresses with white collars that the backup dancers¹ are wearing are pretty cute.

_{1. Backdancers! wasn't a bad movie. Then again, I don't remember how long ago I watched it, so who knows...might have been another clichéd movie.}

I need caffeine

2011-11-30T19:50:00.001-08:00

DJ Okawari I love you and the music you make.

Television

2011-11-29T22:24:00.001-08:00

oh I see.
you watch TV?
-Kevin Edralin

I'm somewhat insulted. -_-;

Uhh..

2011-11-25T16:13:00.001-08:00

I wonder why I'm still friends with you..

The music video was subtly disturbing, so here you go, just the album cover. Heard this song while shopping this early morning at Ontario Mills. Spent $50, pretty much done shopping for Christmas and self.

Oh Friday

2011-11-18T22:05:00.001-08:00

Where did my motivation go..where is that brighter side?

Sleep now. Energy for work and interview tomorrow.

Bummer

2011-11-16T21:11:00.001-08:00

How do I get any work done if I'm sleepy before 9:30?

Lists, again?

2011-11-14T16:13:00.001-08:00

I always have these fantastic ideas of what I'll do the moment I get home. And then I get terribly distracted and all that careful planning and organizing just goes down the drain.

On another note..
For all of you early-ers, did you ever think about this? They give you your change in application status at midnight on December 15th, right? So, what if you applied to a school on the East Coast?

Doesn't that mean we'll, technically, be able to see our new status at 9 PM on December 14th?
Just the thought of that fills me with dread..

Another thought:
I was looking through holiday CDs (I want to buy A Very She & Him Christmas!) and noticed that it's $5 for the MP3 files and double that for the actual CD with the lyrics printed on a cute little booklet all wrapped up in a jewel case.

And vinyls are double the price for CDs.

Which made me think about this broadcast on the radio I heard the other day, that those music companies plan on slowing down the releases of CDs by the year 2013.

So, do I save a couple of bucks and get the MP3 or..well, they do have that super saving deal if you spend $25 or more. Okay. I'll probably buy the jewel case.

Just a thought

2011-11-11T22:04:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I wonder how we could have been so stupid to think that we were possible. I force out of my mind the upsetting things and just recall the happy ones.

But then, sometimes I wonder if I actually miss us, miss you, or just miss having a crutch.

So cool

2011-11-10T21:45:00.001-08:00

So my coolest friend ever, ever, found this Hipster Dress Up (for girls) site, hurrhurr*. If you're a guy, here's the Hipster Dress Up for you.

Anyways, I got my first pay check today! Albeit's only $10 for ushering, but still, receiving a check with your name on it is pretty exciting. I did get a paper cut while opening the envelope though. Also got my AP test refunds back today!

Just came back from shopping earlier, looking for the perfect blazer for my interview with Yale next weekend. Did you know that Skin Food is in the West Covina Westfield?! All the way from Korea, to Taiwan, to here. Now I can get my nail polishes at a convenient place ^_^ Though, the prices are probably higher here.

Me, nervous? A total understatement.

Heard this song at Forever 21 today:

_{*Hurr hurr seems to be my new..haha. A trippy-er haha.}

Minuscule Details

2011-11-10T19:00:00.000-08:00

I spent around 15 minutes trying to figure out why my font face wouldn't work.

I realized I was missing a "/".

I promise I won't spend too much time on this.

2011-11-08T23:02:00.001-08:00

In math class:

Tim or Ray or Alex: Hey, Franklin!
Frank: What the hell did you just call me?

I Dream High

2011-11-07T19:44:00.000-08:00

Hurr hurr, all Jocelyn's fault for getting me hooked on dramas. That being said, I've only watched about 3 completely.

But anyways..

IU (Well, Pilsook) and Jason! :D
So, in the famous words of Pilsook..

Are these just good manners?

Why 11?

2011-11-06T11:31:00.000-08:00

Why not 12.

It feels so strange typing on an uncovered keyboard. One, it makes a loud annoying sound whenever I type. (An incentive to stop typing, perhaps?) Two, I now need to worry about crumbs and stuff falling in between the cracks.

Listening to this music, having a half filled out Christmas gift list, staying warm with the heater on, feeling as relaxed as ever (due to the fact that I'm sick and consider myself incapable of completing any homework right now)...I could honestly brainwash myself into thinking it's already December, that the next few weeks will be Winter Break, and that ~~school tomorrow will be canceled~~what school?

New Christmas theme coming soon, ehe.

Nostalgia

2011-11-05T14:57:00.000-07:00

Turk: You're like school in July.
Turk: No class.

That aside, if you 9gag or use tumblr, you've probably already seen this, but if you haven't:
3 steps to stay classy:

Step 1:
Rainymood

Step 2:

_{Yeah! Phoenix Wright! :D I miss that game.}

Step 3:

_{Reminds me of holiday dinners and winter. Now, just got to get over this large hump-supplements and essays. Then I can go crazy and start gift wrapping and card writing and letter mailing. Sounds fun.}

Optional Step:
And loop it all with Endlessvideo.

Top it off with cold medicine and cough drops and all that jazz, you'll be dead as a door nail in minutes.

Defining

2011-11-03T20:03:00.000-07:00

Ah, this is vintage crime? I could read this stuff all day, really.
Lisbeth Salander you are so damn interesting.
34 pages left but, sorry, a nice shower, APES homework, and studying for math will have to come first.
I want to finish the last bit in one sitting.

Perhaps if I can paint all of this black and white, I'll better pinpoint what it is that's bringing me such emotional turmoil right now.
But there's gray areas, of course.
So, for now, sorry, sorry, sorry. I don't to mean act like such a..um, jerk (for lack of better term) to you but I can't stand..

..yeah, I can see how this is a total repeat of the past. I need a better way to deal with problems.

Don't chew me up, but:

Been stuck in my head for a while, aha.. Well, I took into consideration that apparently, hipster stuff is all the rage and mainstream stuff is absolutely horrid, so here's the lyrics-version.

Is this what they call "stream of consciousness"? My current writing style right now. Well, it's something.

Thanks for the cough drops. Without them, I'd probably would have been mute this whole entire day. Although, I guess some people wouldn't mind that.

_{Wow, I had to refrain from dropping out profanity in this post. This must be affecting me more than I thought.}

WIN/NIM

2011-11-02T20:59:00.001-07:00

So what if you win in virtual reality
You're still a loser in real life
-Alan

Cold Hands

2011-11-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

Freezing fingers make it really hard to type and boring chapters of government make it really hard to read.

Currently experience an intermingling fit of emotions. It's not really fun. It pulls up a huge mess of memories.

There was this time where I think it was either Andrew or Sharon or both, they (or he or she) came up to me (total run on sentence here) and asked me if I hated this one person I had been avoiding.

Using ignorance as a coping device. I wonder if I regret doing that now?

---
Stieg Larsson you are brilliant. 170 pages of The Girl Who Played With Fire left. I guess I might not be able to finish it tonight.

Patchwork

2011-10-31T19:35:00.000-07:00

Can't say I've owned anything from philosophy when I was little, but the smells of their lip glosses are sweetly nostalgic.

It's 7 PM and nobody has come to ring our door bell yet. We have two huge bags of M&M fun sized candies.

I lost one of my elephant earrings. It was a stud type (not a dangling jingle-jangle type), so it's relatively small, but if you see anything that sounds like this description, please tell me! Its nose is facing to the right and its eye is made up of a rhinestone, or whatever you call them.

---
So, how does patchwork relate to any of this? I feel like everything that my life is consisted of (including this blog post) is one huge patchwork, and recently, I haven't been doing a fantastic job at putting all of these small things together, these small scraps together.

I've been reaching around in the dark and pasting and sewing together whatever looks right, and in the end, I'm stuck with one large mess.

Just got to remind self: somehow, even if they don't add up the typical 100%, it'll still be complete.

Okay, well, submitting everything tonight.

Barley Milk Tea

2011-10-30T17:34:00.000-07:00

That, and other various drinks have kept me awake and sane after the hours I've put into essay writing.

I've never spent this long revising and revising essays.

Was going to submit right now, but I guess I'll have to wait till later tonight or tomorrow afternoon.

Good luck to me (and all those early-s out there).
I'm nervous. Not about getting in or not (that'll hit me later) but just about actually submitting it.

Oh, and, French oral to practice for. But, that can wait.

Holiday Season

2011-10-29T20:05:00.000-07:00

Candy Canes already? Okay, I guess it's okay if it's actually a pen (Jenny Yu), but, Christmas trees and all that jazz in the mall? Already?!?

Gosh, it's too darn early.

I mean, that means I'll need to start getting gifts together and everything.
Can't say I dislike it, but there's too much on my platter.

I've always loved hearing Christmas songs at the end of November, but this year I'm afraid it'll be very different.

2011-10-29T15:30:00.000-07:00

him: hm all that talk about living in the moment and stuff
makes me wish that i could be where you are right now
and perhaps that i could have a car
which seems weird
because everyone got in a car accident
but like
to me
having a car
would enable me to live in the moment
ya know?

_{It's funny what you find in saved Notepads, quotes and "logged" chats from old friends that have become new acquaintances.}

Over a year ago. But the whole "living in the moment" idea still persists. Time to paint it into my essays.

Tuesday, November 1st, 2011, take your time.
I'm not quite ready yet.

2011-10-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

Sure, it takes time to realize things. But it takes so much longer to accept them.

Night.

2011-10-24T20:37:00.001-07:00

I intend to sleep before 10 tonight. Even essays and supplements will not stop me.

2011-10-23T19:36:00.000-07:00

Ok, but in all seriousness, I need to rethink all of this friend business. I like to apply labels as often and specifically as I possibly can to people and to things and to groups because it makes all of those things seem more solid. It makes it make more sense. I've always had security issues, I guess this is one way to counter it.

But I've realized from my envious fits and sore tired eyes (and Carissa's two cents) that I really am way too friend dependent, and even then, I have crappy relationships with a lot of them, relationships I'm trying ridiculously hard to fix this year. I like letting things just sit and fester and watching them play out however it is that they will, but in the end when I have to clean it up again it makes me feel that much worse.

James said that to make friends you need to be a friend, that it's a give and take process. Maybe I've been giving the wrong things and accepting the wrong facts. Or something.

People complain to me all the time about how their group of friends isn't a group or how they don't have many friends (and get upset at me when I say I come from the same boat because they think my relationship are all nice and dandy) but I honestly-see what I mean, all this group business?

I know we have our cliques. I guess step one to solving my problem is to not see these cliques as finite. Rather, they are infinite (I don't know if that word quite fits but that's the opposite of "finite", isn't it?), and whoever wants to enter shall join and whoever drops out shall leave.

Now, if things played out in high school in this way, it'd be easier for me to accept this new "philosophy" I'm pushing upon myself. But these days, I can't help but feel excluded.

And that's where I'm back to all of this "group" business.

Gosh, this post is like a positive feedback loop. Oh, those vicious cycles.

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White background and no more pop up images because I'm getting lazy and tired. New background set that is less annoying to read over and more user-friendly soon.

2011-10-22T23:53:00.000-07:00

It's you and me, for~~ever~~ the rest of the night and early morning.

Midnight snack + laptop (Jenny + Word) = power essay writing

I typically dislike grass jelly a lot but somehow when you add in red bean and green bean and whatever bean they put in it and QQ "konjac" it tastes extremely delicious. But especially when it's hot (or you're tired) and you take it out of the fridge.

Then, it's delicious.

Quick recap of Branding Iron game? Well, we lost. But I got out from under a rock and did something without being friend-dependent so I guess that's a +1 for me.

And we got pizza and Jonathan locked me out from his car after dropping everyone else home, got a few scratches (not saying how), and nearly got lost while giving me a ride home, so, who cares if we lost by four and the receiver (or whoever) dropped the ball four times and got our hopes up and then snatched it away? Poor guy, he'll probably get it hard on Monday.

But okay, tonight isn't power blogging it's power essay writing. So, ta ta for now.

Update: I read "characters" as "words". Boy is it sure getting late. Time to cut.

2011-10-20T20:32:00.000-07:00

Aw, look at us, pulling off those pigtails. Okay, so maybe not such me, but..well anyways.

"Childhood" day reminded me of going to after school Chinese school at Ybarra back in elementary school and part of middle school and meeting this girl named Justine who was, I guess by today's definition, "hipster".

_{(I wish I remembered your last name so I could talk to you again -_- Justine is too common of a name. )}

But anyways, recently there's been quite a lot of people talking about The Perks of Being a Wallflower and that also made me instantly think of you. I could use your insight/advice/input/etc. right now..

---

While I'm on the talk of "childhood" and past things..do you remember playing Diary Girl on our DSes (yeah I'm somewhat ashamed to say I even found this game but anyways, I suppose we all have our girly, childish sides. Some people just move away from those sides at an early age) because I couldn't talk to you on the phone too late or use the computer so it was the only way we could chat?

Just thought of that when I woke up from a nap.

---

Oh and, Jonathan, I'm so so so so so horrible at solving these problems. I'd so much rather just let them fester and blow over and solve their selves, and not have to make a choice about it. And with the advent the internet, I'm even worse at it. But you said that doing nothing is also doing something so, I guess it's better to actually do something about it since either way, I'm consciously making that decision.

2011-10-18T22:13:00.000-07:00

HAHA i was pooping

-Charlene Hao

Last Sunday I learned that I don't know how to walk. Yesterday I learned that I forgot how to run.

Watch me stumble and fall on the road to becoming a lady. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Wallflower!

Mmm..

2011-10-12T20:23:00.001-07:00

Whoever invented ice cream, pasta salad, and city-on-a-hills..

...whoever they were, they were geniuses.

The Alchemist

2011-10-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

I open up the Alchemist. Flip to page xi, and consider skipping the introduction labeled "Ten Years On".

And then I see something about Santiago and a personal calling, and see that there are four obstacles that we face when trying to pursue our calling.

1) We are told that the things we want to do may not be possible
2) We do not want to hurt our loved ones
3) Fear of defeat and obstacles (which in turn, becomes an obstacle. Reminds me of a positive feedback loop...yay for APES)
4) The fear of actually realizing the dream we've had our whole life.

And then I wonder to myself, why did I not start The Alchemist sooner?

I hope it will not disappoint.

Other side

2011-10-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

I've always been the one who ignored others (and made it terribly awkward) instead of talking things out.

I've fixed that problem this year. Yes, I'm a year (or even more, in some cases) late, and perhaps, yes, I ruined some friendships for good. But, better have resolved things than let them fester or blow over.

So it's funny that now I'm on the other side of things. Seeing how it feels to be the avoided person, and not the person who is avoiding.

Like I'm the plague, or something.

But it's also interesting how, the Lord has paralleled another situation (very similar to the one that cause said person *points above* to treat me like the plague) for me as well. So I get yet another view on things.

Gosh, how awkward.

But anyways on a brighter note...despite pigging out last weekend, I didn't gain back more weight than I loss. Heh. This progress though, just tells me that I need to continue to work diligently.

_{Famous star with Cheese from Carl's Jr! 680 calories. But ridiculously worth it when I'm feeling down. The only difference between this and the typical eat-all-of-the-ice-cream-in-the-tub-as-comfort-food? At least I actually feel full after!}

Someday

2011-10-10T17:37:00.000-07:00

I will find what I'm looking for. Until then, I need to just keep pushing forward and continue to achieve.

_{I don't know what caption can do this picture justice. Reminds me of those mystery movies or books, or Clue.}

A huge thanks to everyone who came on Saturday! I think I said that already, but I guess you can't say it too many times. It was an entertaining night and I got a bunch of left overs. See? Look. A four course dinner. Jonathan's pasta salad is delicious. :D

But anyways, I've run out of things to say. So here's a quote I heard on TV

+Then I'll have to say terrific.
-Why?
+It's what you do when you have a friend who is really proud of something they suck at.

Somewhere there

2011-10-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

People cannot not have dreams. People without dreams are like hens that cannot lay eggs.
-Drunken to love you

Yeah, I have time to watch dramas and stuff. While I stress about college applications and where to apply to and a total disillusionment, in which a majority of my thoughts on college have been reversed or shattered.

Anyways, a big thank you to everyone that came to my housewarming party on Saturday! There are so many left overs. I had a brilliant dinner tonight.

And to Sharon for the gift! Heh, I'll put it to good use. After I figure out how to masterfully use it.

I'll update with pictures soon. Time to go wrap things up. Hope I haven't forgotten to do any homework...

Simplicity

2011-10-02T19:51:00.001-07:00

"sleeping at 10:30 is illegal when you're a senior"
-Jenny

Ah, I got to find some way to enjoy senior year.

So, for those of you that went to Cabaret Night or NHS Idol last year, you might have heard Eileen Lek sing her self-composed song, Simplicity. If you like what you hear, support by subscribing to her Youtube Channel or "liking" her Facebook page, EileenLekMusic!

Awake.

2011-10-02T01:32:00.000-07:00

Doing math homework, late at night.
Something about improper integrals; I don't really remember the lesson. Probably should have finished it Thursday night.

Screwed for the three tests on Monday...going to be hard to keep up the 4.0.

In a, type-in-fragments-and-not-in-paragraphs mood right now. But really, being able to type coherently so late at night (yeah guys, this is "late" for me) is an achievement. But I'm probably going to regret sleeping so late when I need to wake up early and rush to church tomorrow.

When studying for APES (a test that I, according to Darren, didn't do extremely great on) on Google Docs:
Alan:wait why is it purple now
Alan:i cant print purple
Alan:can you
Alan:unpurple it please?
Alan:lol

James was complaining about my multi-color highlighting too. Is there something wrong with fancy colors?

When trying to stay awake:
Angela: there's a really good quote somewhere
Angela:i think it really applies to you
Angela:something along hte lines of
Angela:dont look forward to the future, dont be hung up on the past, enjoy the present, because that's the best moment you will have
Me:So, basically, don't worry about what will happen, don't worry about what has happened, just worry about what is happening.

Did I interpret it wrong?
---
Woke up super early (as in, 9 AM) to watch Courageous with my dad and church peeps, had lunch at Banana Bay, took a nap, got "all dolled up" and then realized that I probably shouldn't have went out so many times this weekend.

Tomorrow I've got a date with my books and laptop.

Rosy eyed

2011-09-28T20:57:00.000-07:00

Gotta do this, gotta do that. An endless list of things to do.

So many things to type and so many things to write. I must say, it is head ache inducing. And this changing weather is not helping my immune system, either. Didn't know senior year could be worse than junior year. Though, junior year was more exhausting work-wise.

Senior year? It's not just the books (but, well, there certainly are books. I haven't started The Alchemist or that other book by Leo Tolstoy, and I'm not done with Wuthering Heights yet and we have an essay on it soon...), but it's the the psychological and emotional stuff behind it too. I honestly do not want to think about what I will be doing in the future. College apps...filling them out and writing essays is like opening up Pandora's Box to every worry I have and have not yet had but will probably have now since the box is now open.

Speaking of Pandora's Box..still haven't finished that Professor Layton game yet. Or, Diabolical Box. Same thing.

Highlights

2011-09-24T15:07:00.000-07:00

Of club fair (day 3, cultural clubs):
While handing out CASA (Chinese American Student Association) slips:
Random Guy: Hey, why are you giving me this? Is it because I look chinese?
Me: Uhmm..well you don't have to be Chin-
Random Guy: Because I'm not, y'know.
Me: Well, uhm, you don't-
Random Guy: I'm African-American.
Me: Uhh..
Random Guy: Nah I'm kidding, I'm Chinese.
Me: So will you take the slip?

He took the slip.

Of Cabaret:
SEEING DANVIN! :D Hi Danvin. Not that you read this. But it was nice seeing you yesterday. Since, it's been a while.

Of Today:
I don't know, as I woke up a few minutes before it turned twelve (since somebody, *cough* Jonathan *cough, woke me up) with a somewhat pounding headache. But well, he's going to Cabaret Night tonight, so! See you then.

Okay well, if that's not much of a highlight...here's one. Finding this background website, Simple Desktops! They feature a collection of 2560px by 1600px .png images without gradients, words, lens flares, or drop shadows! I'm in love because, well, you know me. I'm a minimal-istic girl.

Oh, and, adult housewarming party tonight. For all the adults. For the kids? October 8! (: If you haven't RSVPed yet...go go go go RSVP. The earlier the better. I know I said Oct 1st, but the earlier the better. So I can buy the stuff I need and all.

Dreams, aspirations

2011-09-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh take me back to my dreams.

And while I'm there, give me some dreams and aspirations to want to reach.
_{Besides the typical, "I want to be successful" or "I just pretty much want to beast at everything" or what not. Let me find out what I want to do, or at least, just, give me a push in the right direction. Please?}

Squashes, inside jokes & dreams

2011-09-20T19:13:00.001-07:00

_{So, the other day we were at Meow Meow and James came up with this analysis of those wall stickers. His analysis? The bike represents a little kid. So the "I miss you" is obviously from a pedophile.}

While walking after Gov (and a brief discussions of the Sasquatch music festival in Washington and Sasquatches)...
Jenny: I was so confused during class. I kept thinking he was talking about a vegetable..
Me: That's a SQUASH! -_-

Ahh college season.

2011-09-19T18:58:00.000-07:00

_{Happy Birthday Michelle, even though you're not really in this series of pictures..}

Oh hey guys. So, I'm still getting the whole hard-to-read or how-do-I-comment. But I figure it's not important enough to figure out tonight (and plus, a lot of you guys use RSS or Google Reader or what not), so you will have to wait.

Well anyways, October is almost here, so that means its time to start writing essays. Draft after draft. Until we end up with something that satisfies us, if only just a little. Because, I figure it's going to be pretty hard to be especially pleased with our personal statements.

But maybe, that's just me.

Oh, before I forget. I got a solo! I'll be singing Hang on Little Tomato by Pink Martini for Cabaret Night this Friday and Saturday at WHS. Tickets are $8 and can be bought at the door at the MPR!

We're young, hip 'n cool

2011-09-13T20:21:00.001-07:00

Because sometimes, even if you know how something's going to end, that doesn't mean you can't enjoy the ride.

-Future Ted

_{Aww, aren't I a little model. Aren't I a little artist.}

Will it screw up things, or will it not? Well, I shall muse over it. I guess, as the old saying goes, you never know unless you try. While I do that...

>>Homecoming, anyone?
_{Hint hint: Erica Ku and I will be going to every dance this year. Just saying. Just so y'know.}

New Interface

2011-09-11T17:07:00.000-07:00

After many days or work, it's up! Thanks to Jenny for helping me out.

It should be much easier to read things now (and scroll), though I'm aware that Javascript doesn't work on iPhones or iTouches, so I'm working on that.

Notice how the backgrounds change when you refresh the pages?

Also working on trying to get comments incorporated back onto my posts.

In the meanwhile, if you've got anything to say, say it!

Extremely Hesitant

2011-09-09T22:57:00.000-07:00

Went to ~~Boiling Crab for the first time~~ The Hub and Meow Meow (for the first time for Jenny, at least) and watched TV for the longest period of time today.

Seinfield is just great. So is Monk and How I Met Your Mother.

Anyways, a slew of quotes that are growing on me:

Natalie:I don't trust them.
Monk:Why?
Natalie:Because they're teenage guys.
Monk:Does that mean they automatically lie?
Natalie:Yes, yes it does.
---
"Yes-very foolish; as if I took notice!" replied Catherine in a peevish tone. "And where is the sense of that?"

"To show that I do take notice," said Heathcliff.
-Wuthering Heights

I must say, that book is really growing on me. Hindley just disgusts me. =_= And while it's upsetting to read about Heathcliff, it's even worse to read about how vain Catherine can be...I think I may finish it this weekend.

6. Handwritten stuff rocks
Whether it's just a note or it's a(n) ~~terribly long~~ essay or a birthday card or whatever, I love handwritten stuff. Seems a lot more genuine, and it's something I'll keep looking back to for a long time. Slip one into my locker? (:
---
You're hard to understand. You're growing on me, though. I might be hesitant, but...yeah. You are.

That awkward place

2011-09-07T20:57:00.000-07:00

You know, that awkward place between point A and B where you're facing some large (expected) obstacle that you don't really want to face so you take a detour (that is, quite often, meaningless) so you can delay going through that obstacle for as long as possible even though you're incredibly anxious to get to point B.

That's me right now. I'm sure you can fill in the blanks where my metaphors become unclear.

But anyways, what to do, what to do? I know I can't possibly go down this route but I really really want to and it would be extremely cool if I could. In the long run, perhaps there's no point, but I think you can say that about everything that doesn't display some instant gratification (in your constant desire to improve and become better and succeed, or whatever it is that you strive for).

What to do? Wait, right? That makes me incredibly anxious; I hate being unable to do anything, being forced to wait...(imagine me when the year rolls around and we're waiting for our ~~reject~~ acceptance letters from colleges. I hope I won't be a constant nervous wreck.) Nothing else to do though, unless I want to screw things up for good.

On another note...
Ted: You do realize they were lying right?
Lily: No Ted, they don't realize they weren't lying

_{Props to Kevin}

Oh, them golden quotes

2011-09-05T22:38:00.000-07:00

(while studying for Calculus and making unintelligent jokes)
Jenny: Ok, next one! What's 1 - cosx?
Michelle: Oh, oh I know this one! I've heard it before. Wait, let me think of the answer..
Me: ..but she was seriously quizzing me. That wasn't a joke.

Today was a pretty successful bake day, if I do say so myself. :D
The KBBQ and shaved ice were good too. I think I still smell like food.
(We ate so much today; it felt like we were in a perpetual food coma).
I opened the door to the women's bathroom just as Jason was coming out. (Much thanks to Bryan!)
& Good luck, Daniel, at UCSF! (:

As usual, my grammar (and French) fail, but I guess that incites funny responses.
Jeremy Hsu: why would i be hanging out with your friends when i can HANG OUT WITH MY MOM :-D

But perhaps it's my quirkiness that incites the strangest ones.
James Huang: yes. my parents are indeed very, very cute.

Wish me luck on that two hour, two part Calculus tomorrow.

New interface coming soon.

Awkward Title

2011-09-03T23:43:00.001-07:00

Maybe it's not that I'm hopelessly awkward with pivotal people all the time.I'm probably always awkward.It's just that I notice every subtle hint of awkwardness in my speech when I'm with ~~you~~ him.

Le futur

2011-09-03T13:23:00.000-07:00

They tell you to stay true to yourself.
To succeed.
They tell you complete nonsense.
To candy coat possible disillusionment.

They know that it's all about adapting to the changing times.
---
People used to use Blogger, but now it's all about Tumblr. No, I'm not hating or bitter. It's actually sort of funny, really. Those old blogs (Xangas, Bloggers, etc.) are now relics of who we were and how we were like in the past. Even if we're not like that anymore.

Sort of like those love padlocks, where they put a lock on the gate and they throw the key into the river as a memento of that friendship/relationship, even after it ends (if it does end, that is).
In Paris, *points up*

Except I guess you can always delete posts, sort of like retrieving the key from the river and unlocking the lock and throwing the lock away, forgetting about that person and moving on with life. You know what they say though. Once it's on the internet, it's there forever.
---
Aww, Blogger's new interface looks so cute. Sometimes, my own sarcasm eludes me.

Senior year..

2011-08-25T18:46:00.000-07:00

I don't think I've ever been so bored from school. Ever.

"I know. But if I do it, then it will be nice again if I say things are like white elephants, and you’ll like it?"
-Hills Like White Elephants

Gotta go find..what do they call it? Oh right, a passion.

_{I miss you guys and summer. ):}

Commercials

2011-08-19T20:43:00.001-07:00

Why are they everywhere?

You win!

2011-08-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

It's a sad day when you give up on somebody. But maybe I should redefine "giving up". Maybe this just means I don't need to feel sad when we don't talk like before, and that I don't need to cut people 100% off from my life..or force connections and reactions to happen (like those old Chemistry days, when we'd make up or BS reactions on those reaction quizzes) when clearly, nothing will.

That a simple "hello" should suffice.
And to not feel obliged to give more or expect much more than that.

History

2011-08-17T15:08:00.000-07:00

I guess history really was never my thing.

I'm sorting out through everything and I found old notebooks and stuff.
I had a 88% in World History.
(Managed to pull of an A by the end of the semester though).
Guess it wasn't as easy as I thought.

Guess I just suck at history.

Coooool

2011-08-17T12:52:00.000-07:00

Don't worry, 9Gag won't make me turn this into a typical tumblr.

Artichoke tea and hearts

2011-08-17T11:30:00.000-07:00

I really want to try this out...in my neverending quest of achieving smoother, more toned skin.

But if you go all the way to the end, you realize that this tea "will make you go to the bathroom like...crazy."

And if you know me well already (or have spent a day or two with me) you know that I have a pretty small bladder. Well at least...in the summer it's heightened because I'm constantly drinking something to stay cool.
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I hate moving, but I've been sheltered from most of the tough parts of moving the three times I've moved. Much thanks to Jenny for lending a hand the other day! But my room is still incredibly messy so I have a long way to go. I think I'm going insane.

No worries though, when you guys are all over for my house warming party, I'll be perfectly normal.

_{Speaking of normal, school is about to start. Which means I should really finish up Frankenstein.}